urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily ...actually, not really... crystallinelily 2008-02-17T07:26:03Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily:6680 2008-02-17T07:26:03Z 2008-02-17T07:26:03Z ...and I really need to get a life.<br /><br />Preferably one with a boyfriend.<br /><br />I am lonely too =( does he think he is the only one who is lonely?<br /><br />I miss being loved too =( does he think he was the only who missed being loved?<br /><br />And now, he has someone to keep him company and someone to love him.<br /><br />And I still don't.<br /><br />I want to have that feeling again. The feeling of warmth and love and contentedness in someone's arms.<br /><br />I want to have that little jolt of electricity when I am kissed, or that tug in my stomach when he holds my hand.<br /><br />So yes, I do want a boyfriend...but I am not gonna be desperate. No one likes a desperate girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily:6463 2008-02-17T04:11:21Z 2008-02-17T04:11:21Z When I don't think about it, it's ok...<br /><br />But it is so hard to stop thinking.<br /><br />So hard to stop talking to him.<br /><br />Why am I so weak? Why can't I go a day without talking to him? What is wrong with me???<br /><br />How can he still make me happy, after what he's done? <br /><br />Even with a broken heart...I somehow manage to love him with all the broken pieces... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily:6334 2008-02-17T04:05:08Z 2008-02-17T04:05:08Z <i>"I believe that everything happens for a reason.<br /><br />People change so that you can learn to let go.<br /><br />Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right.<br /><br /><b>You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.<br /><br />And sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together.</b>"</i><br /><br /> -Marilyn Monroe urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily:5988 2008-02-17T04:02:46Z 2008-02-17T04:13:54Z i wish fixing a broken heart would be as easy as this...of course it would help if someone was willing to fix mine for me...<br /><br /><center><img src="http://xe2.xanga.com/bb0875fbc80b0173521508/z17944197.jpg" style=" border-width: 0px;" height="400" alt="Mend_My_Broken_Heart_by_YoukaiYume" /> </center><br /><br />i wish i had someone to send this picture to...<br /><br /><center><img src="http://xac.xanga.com/9d9b501b78218173521503/w26902433.jpg" style=" border-width: 0px;" height="955" alt="Valentines_Day_101_Ichichi_luv_by_QueenOfDorks" /> </center><br /><br />but above all, i wish that i will be able to accomplish this...<br /><br /><center><img src="http://x2c.xanga.com/f79c2b6456c33173521509/z131926088.jpg" style=" border-width: 0px;" width="240" alt="heh2" /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crystallinelily:5840 2008-02-17T03:32:49Z 2008-02-17T03:32:49Z I want to start fresh on livejournal.<br /><br />I closed my xanga because people knew about it and read stuff...and then xanga proceeded to make my life miserable.<br /><br />So, hello livejournal.<br /><br />My name is Mary Feng.<br /><br />I am quite miserable.